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Snow Globe |
my friend is in love
so completely head over heals, write home to momma in love
and I know this shouldn't make me angry
but I know he had to warn people he might fall in love
he had to plan around major holidays and birthdays,
he had to choose a day
to let those closest to him know that he might fall in love
he might meet someone who would make his heart race
he might meet someone who would fill up his nights and his days
he might meet someone, the mear mention of their name, making him smile
he might meet someone, oh like we all hope to, that would love him so beautifully in return
and here it is
these are the days
love has swept over him
entranced him
romanced him
bewitched betwixed him
he is whole heartedly head to toes completely in love
he warned all he could
but he could not warn them all
and as his lover turns and kisses his cheek
there are those whose hearts shut
they do not recognize this kiss
as the kiss of their lover
they run they whisper
not for my eyes
they run they demand
it is not like mine
they have small hearts
they ask that only certain people be happy
they have small hearts
they hold fear that their worlds may fall apart
they have small hearts
they hold fear that they might not be certain people
they might possibly be other
they may be cast out of buildings
cast out of life
cast out of all they hold dear
because they have learned the rules to life
and the most important is to not be other
they hold tight
so fiercely tight
to their rigidly controlled misguided world
oh please don't break their snow globe
please don't break their world
everything will be ok
just shake and watch the snow fall on the perfect small town
they ask only that their be no other
other than themselves
there is fear in their hearts
and hatred lurking in their darkest spaces
hatred craving a belief that might give it a name
so it will stop gnawing their insides
telling them they are not ok
hatred craving a belief so it can be cast out of them given to someone else
thrown on someone who is other
because they are not other
could not be other
will not be other
they just shake their snow globes and pray that nothing changes
my friend got kissed today by the man he loves
so softly on the cheek as lovers do
there was a woman who asked / who told
that such a thing does not belong
should not be allowed
should be stopped
should not be tolerated
could not be watched
should not be seen
had happened in the very room where she was
my friend warned everyone that he might fall in love
he warned everyone
he warned everyone he could
and it hurt me every time he had to warn anyone
had to make an appointment to tell his family
that there would be no woman by his side
that in his heart he saw himself holding hands with a man
ask them to please see him as he is
ask them to please still see the young man they love
afraid to loose all he held dear
he warned everyone he warned everyone he could
and I was made to warn no one
how can one need to warn others of their love
as if it were a tornado
or a hurricane
as if there might be collateral damage
what is the warning you give
I might be falling in love
the picture is not in your snow globe
copyright 1999
Katie
O'Loughlin |
